79 Days to go

First off, to anyone who reads this blog, just know that I am an honest person and say what is on my mind.

I will not apologize for anything that you might find offensive.

Anyhoo....

Here I am sitting at Logan airport waiting to board my plane. I have a direct flight to LA with a lovely long lay over of 8 hours and then a 12 hour flight (give or take) to Fiji1

Last night was definitely a tough one. I cried about missing my family, cried cause I am going to miss my cat, cried because the longest I have ever been on vacation for alone was 1 week. and cried for the unknown. Ok so mybe I didn't cry that much.....but I shed some tears over all of those things, and I do so because my family is so important to me and I love kitty kitty to death. I will miss all of my friends but I know they will still be there when I return, along with family and pets lol.

My mom said to me last night, "Do you know how many people love you?" I didn't skip a beat and said "Yes, a lot, and they have reached out to me time and time again to tell me this is the best thing for me to do. They have encouraged me to do this, always reassuring me that things will be OK". And that is 100% true!

I get messages on my Facebook posts from friends and family, all telling me I am going to have a blast (which of course I know I will), and that I am doing things that most people can only dream of. I thank each and everyone of you for the encouraging messages.

The one thing I can say about all of that is ANYONE can do this!!! It isn't easy and I know that. If you want to do something bad enough you will figure out how to do it.

I sold a house that I put my heart and soul into (along with my mom and her fiance) and loved along with , and quit a job that I was at for 13 years. I gave up everything that I have known for so long to just take a leap and try something new. It is scary as hell!

Without the encouragement from my mom to sell the house and move in with her, and the guidance I have had from my mom, dad, stepmom and therapist, quitting my job was very hard but it has been totally worth it. I miss the people but NOT the work itself.

You can always find a way to do something, you just may have to sacrifice something in order to get it. They can be small sacrifices like not eating out at restaurants, staying in and having friends over rather than spend money at bars, don't splurge on materialistic things and so forth. Every little bit helps.

So of course I said see you later to everyone and finally this am to my mom and Larry. I was fine up untill I just NOW....literally NOW, I got an AWESOME video call in the middle of this blog from my nephew Eli and my sister in law. That just sent me over the edge! I am so glad I got it but I look like a fool bawling my eyes out at the airport with a computer in front of me hahaha. My sister in law said... ."What you are doing takes a lot of courage", I said "that might be an understatement" haha. Right now I am not feeling very courageous, but I know actions speak louder than words, and by being at the airport, that is my biggest step in this part of the journey.

I will try and continue to keep my blog updated on my adventures and upload pictures when I have access to the internet. When I return I might just have to have a big get together to talk about my trip and photos in one big foul swoop lol

Till next time my friends and anyone who happens to follow my friend Mary via my blog!