Sticks and Stones.....

I have been wanting to write about this for a while but airing some stuff out to whoever in the hell wants to read it, isn't always comforting.

Here I am 37, single, new job, traveling a ton for work and loving every single minute of it. I get to meet tons of people and explore different areas.

Normally being single doesn't bother me but lately it has been. Not because I spend time alone because I love my alone time and I need it after my training classes lol. But I miss sharing my experiences with someone and having a guy around.

So the old saying goes....sticks and stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me. Well that may be true but there are a few things that people have said to me in the past that have unfortunately stuck in my mind. When it comes to dating and being in a relationship I like being in one but can never find someone to date. I am not picky when it comes to people, but I am particular in what I want in someone. I know I am a good person, have a great personality blah blah blah.....but like I said before there have been things said to me from guy in the past that have stuck in my head.

You just aren't dating material

I just don't think so (when asked if they were interested)

Multiple others.....you are unapproachable

GAH!!! These things stick in my head and as much as I try to not think about them I do. Not dating material WTH does that mean??? And I just don't think so???? It is ok to use me cause that is all I am good for? Knowing how I feel??? Unapproachable? What is that crap? If I am not someone that people think they can approach then they are not the right person for me, I know that but it still doesn't change the fact that I think about it and try not to look unapproachable.

How do I forget these things when they have caused such an impact on me. Not because I agree with any of their statements but more wonder if they are really true? The interesting thing is that 2 of the guys that have said them have been people I have known for years. If that is the case then how does that help me with someone I don't yet know.

OK I am done whining and complaining to most likely no one but I feel like I needed to get it off my chest.

Remember what you say to someone can make a lasting impact, try to think before you speak or word things differently.